Today i made you eat 3 pomegranate seeds to get a piece of your Halloween candy. You said they were too crunchy BUT you made sure to tell me to tell Lydia(your new nanny) about the new rule. I think that is your way of saying you like pomegranate seeds, or you like Halloween candy.
My iPhone said it was supposed to rain today so I decked us both out in rain gear. Embarrassing because it was totally sunny and I heard it “kind of drizzled” later in the day. sorry!
I’m currently sitting at the bar across the street from my work writing this. I got done early and wanted to write a bit. I hope you like to write. I love it so much. However, I would support you in whatever you love. Right now you love to color and it’s mostly fun but sometimes you can be a little agro about it. Loving activities and people is the best feeling in the world. Just don’t love soccer. Please.


Today is Monday and that means I don’t work and I take you to school. The mornings are crazy but easy because you love routine. Each morning I wake a little before you but after daddy has left for work. Our house is so quiet and our floors are so loud that getting out of bed before you wake up is such a gamble. I sometimes like to get up and get coffee and shower before you wake up so that when you wake up i can focus on you. However, sometimes the first step on the floors wake you up and you shout, “Mommy!” before I have made it 1 foot. Today you woke up at 6:50am, early, again. Our routine for school days is similar to weekends, except I have to get ready and get us both out the door at 8:20am. We take the bus. The 22. It costs $2. I always have cash from my job so we never buy the clipper card. You like to sit in the same seat and we have lots of friends we have made on the bus. Our favorite bus driver is a young man with a beard. One day he didn’t say good morning to you and you asked me, loudly, right in front of him, “Mommy, why isn’t he talking to me?” From that day on he never forgot to say good morning to you, today is no exception. When we approach our stop, you always ask me if I want coffee. I think this is so funny because you are really asking if we are going to stop at the coffee shop on the corner (Tully’s). I have never actually got a coffee here with you, i always gets a croissant. Then we walk to school and you get really excited. You go to Calvary Preschool on Fillmore and Jackson. Your friends you talk about are Sophina, Audrey and Caroline. You also like Kate but you say she doesn’t like to play with you, she plays with Eloise.

While you are at school, I do a variety of things. I should go to the gym. Today I wanted to get my nails done but when I got home I got sucked into this movie on HBO… Anywhere But Here with Natalie Portman and Susan Serandon. It was good but I found myself grateful I’m not a single mom and hoping our relationship doesn’t end up that way. I can no longer watch a movie with a mother and daughter and not instantly relate it to us. Susan is so selfish as a mother and does awful things to her daughter during her teenage years. You are only 3 so I try not to overthink this right now. It’s hard though, Stella, because I love you so much and I want us to always be friends. I had a great Mom, and even she couldn’t figure me out as a teenager. Ugh. For now, we are best friends. You tell me all the time I’m your favorite. I swear.

You are really picky! I started a new rule for you today. You are not allowed to get a treat or a dessert until you eat 3 bites of a new food. I started it off with peas tonight. You acted like I was feeding you rabbit feces. However, you choked 3 down and got your hello kitty fruit snacks.

Currently here is a list of foods you will eat
Frozen waffles- no butter or syrup. No brown parts. No powdered sugar. Sometimes you like it plain wrapped in a napkin. Sometimes you like jelly on it and cut into triangles
Oatmeal- sometimes
Peanut butter and jelly no crust
Cheese quesadillas
Pasta with butter and  cheese
White rice
Frozen turkey meatballs

Your favorite thing is asking “why not?” You usually don’t ask this question appropriately. Example. You- “mom, are we taking the bus to school today?” Me- “yes.” You- “why not?”


I am late to the game at documenting your life, but I figure- better late than never!  This isn’t entirely true, I take lots of photos of you and post them on instagram for all of our friends and family to see.  However, there is so much I don’t want to forget about you because I am having the time of my life. 

 Today is Sunday.  You wake up around 6:45am wanting me.  This is a little early for you but you can see the sunlight peeking through your blinds so you say its time to wake up!  Every morning I am the only one who can get you out of bed.  The first thing you want is for the light to be turned on.  Then you want out of your sleep sack.  You have been sleeping in a sleep sack since you were a newborn.  You still sleep in an overnight diaper so I ask you to please take that off and put underwear on.  You are not thrilled about this, and say, “ok, but after I put my underwear on, can I put my jamma bottoms back on for a little bit?” I agree to this compromise.  It’s nothing surprising, as you ask for this same scenario every morning.  You take your diaper off and put your underwear on all by yourself, but ask for some assistance putting your jamma bottoms back on.  After this is complete, we head to the couch in the living room to snuggle and color.  Daddy is still sleeping.  Our dog, Phyllis, joins us on the couch.  One of the things I love about you so much is how much you like to snuggle and relax in the morning.   We like to get under the same blanket and entangle our limbs together.  Sometimes you request a cartoon, most days I have a cup of coffee in hand, and we just slowly wake up together.  It’s such a sweet part of my day.  Today you are really wanting to color.  You rip a few pages out of your Minnie Mouse coloring book and grab a handful of crayons.  You insist on me doing this with you and if I stop coloring for more than 3 seconds you stop and look at me and ask me to keep coloring.  Sometimes you point to a section of the page that needs to be colored, as if I stopped because I thought it was complete.  We do this for some time and then we start talking about Christmas and Thanksgiving.  You are trying to understand when these are going to happen.  You ask me what day Christmas is and then want to know if it is next week or in 5 weeks.  I love when you say things like this because I can just see your little brain trying to figure out how far away these events are.  This leads to talking about what you want to ask Santa for and we begin to look at catalogs and the Internet to gather ideas.  The first thing you say is that you really want plates for your kitchen.  We find some that you like and we put them on the list.  You also ask for Doc McStuffin stuff, coloring books (shocker) and a dollhouse.  You also want a cash register and this tent thing that you can go inside and read books.  There are many different styles of tents on the website (landofnod.com) but you really want the one that looks like a rocket ship, which I found strange because you usually pick the most girly option.  I compiled the list and sent them to your Grandma and your G-ma. 

 After we untangle ourselves and decide to get ready, you ask if we can go outside and blow bubbles.  You love bubbles.  We went in the backyard with Phyllis and took turns blowing bubbles.  Then you want to ride your bike while blowing bubbles so we go out front and attempt this.  While riding your bike you started singing a song you made up about how much you love to hold my hand and peanut butter and jelly and fruit snacks and coloring.  You are so adorable.  I record this song and post it on instagram. 

 You are like a puppy.  I cannot walk a few feet with you without someone stopping us to say how cute you are, how much they like your dress or your shoes.  You almost never respond but eventually you say thank you. 

 Next, we got to lunch at Tacolicious with Daddy. This restaurant is on Chestnut Street and is one of your favorites.  You come here with Daddy every Friday. 

 After this you want a cupcake from Susie Cakes and so we do this and you eat the whole thing without getting any on your face or your dress.  This is one of the most amazing things about you.  You are so unbelievably clean it’s not normal.  We then walk down to the pet supply store because Phyllis needs dog food.  You like coming here because there is a little bowl of candy at the register. 

 When we get home we color some more and then you go down for your nap.

Two words you said today that were so adorable

Tum instead of tongue

Tomach instead of stomach